Thursday, April 23, 2009

I feel so useless...dam bloody useless. As ur stead, ii nvr do my part when eu are feeling down, ii failed to cheer eu up when eu are emo-ing. ii cant even help eu when eu hving ur problems. When eu were alone in the dark at the beach, whr am i? im sitting comfortably in my room facing the comp. Im nt there to kip eu company, to comfort you. wad kind of girlfriend am i? Sometimes ii feel ii shd nt exist in ur life at all, i onli bring trouble to eu. Instead of lessening ur problem, im adding more problem for you. I blame myself for being such a lousy gf. I sucks in handling BGR. im a LOSER. I HATE MYSELF! I dunnoe how to maintain tis relationship anymore...ii noe there are alot of tings eu didnt want to tell me. If you choose to kip it to urself, it will accumulate more and more and no sooner you will collapse . Aren't we supposed to share wif each other our happiness and sorrow?


Lately, the time tat we spent together is getting lesser and lesser. Our distance are drifting further and further apart. When ii saw you on9 msn jus nw, ii was so happy and jump for joy cuhs nowadays its so hard to get you on9. You are always out everyday. It has been quite some time you nvr chat/webcam wif me in msn. Im so delighted. You told me you are doing ur project so ii was telling myself eu gonna use comp for long. I faster went to bathe and leave msg at ur msn tat ii go bathe first later back. When ii back msn, you were nt there anymore. You smsed me said that you were at the beach hving deep thoughts abt the problem you facing. Immediately, ii feel so disappointed. Why gave me hopes and later smashed it... the feeling of disappointment is so great. You sms me and said eu will tell me wad happen between eu and ur friend later after eu sort out ur "thoughts" but end up eu didn't tell me wad happen. You onli told me wad eu going to do starting from tmr. Hais..wad am i here for? am i jus a normal friend to you?



I HATE MYSELF! WHY EVERYTING IS NOT SMOOTH AND STEADY. Lately ii hv been emo-ing and cries easily...In sku, im lyk smiling from the outside, crying on the inside. Ytd nite we were hving so much fun smsing each other. why today someting hv to happen and spoiled both of our mood.



IM SORRY!
I LOVE YOU BABY! :'(

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